ALL APOLOGIES

"what else should i be??
ALL APOLOGIES..."

grrr... i hate myself today. mali ang ginawa ko. i hang up mr nice guy kanina. dahil nabwisit ako sa kanya. argghh.. bat ko ba ginawa yun. fuck rut. tanga!

i dont wanna put the blame on him, its my choice to hang the phone. kahit na biwsit pa ko, dapat nakontrol ko. now, look, lamig ng pawis mo. at sobrang ngarag ka na. shet...
kasi namn, i dont know where to draw the line between us. everytime i put it the way it is supposed to be, inuurong niya. kumbaga, i want it far... then he would put it near.
if you'd ask me, ok sa kin yun. pero di talga pwede.. on his part eh.

ang gulo ko.. that's all i can say. and he is affected. he is serious. but still, i dont care.
i dont care if he's hurt. basta, i rationalize things ok na..

darn, i'm just so fuckin selfish...
and that's what i'm apologizing for..
so mr. nice guy.. sorry talga..

*i know you won't read it today.. i mean at this very hour. i'll still wait for your call even if it would take years or maybe some awakening.. sabi mo, tatawag ka ng 12. i'll wait. basta. sorry..