head, books, nigthinngales

after a month of school, i felt tired. having frequent headaches and blurring vision. i lost my glasses and have no plans of buying another one. i always read with my magnifying lenses though.. how stoopid.
i got no more free days to while myself in malls. but only freedays to scrupple on my books. or, sit myself in the library for hours doin exercises that callouses my fingers and leave my hand trembling. then my hand would dissociate and join its pain leaving me numb of it....

but that doesnt matter. i still spill ink and do cursives.. they serve me importance. now. and probably in my future.. they're my fallback.
notes come in handy...
mines not neat.

with regards to my book, i'm tearing them page by poage now. absorbing infos... data overload.. now i know why my head hurts...
its the nightinggale screaming at the back of my head..

2000 decibels?? ddear i,m deaf
but no can do... he loves screaming at me...

for the man who pains... so do i.

a thousand slaps, a bruised back...
salined eyes... and a beating
heart..

months have passed since i gave
the burden for you to carry.. i
know the past months have been
to weary for you to keep on. but
still you held your calloused
hands on mine...

what's the pain if it would
release immeasurable butterflies
and rainbows if red arched lips would be the
only answer in every questions
yet to be answered...

what is pain if there is love... a
lot of it..

you have believeth.. though
blinded.
yet, faith has lead you.
i know..time will let me nderstand...

still trying.

as for yourthousand slaps, a bruised back...
salined eyes... and a beating
heart..
i'm really sorry.. i really do

KONEKSIYON

Malamig
----may makapal na ulap sa kaibuturan ng laman, maliliit na karayom na nananatiling nakatusok sa balat--- hindi ginabayan ng tsinung mahusay sa acupuncture
----tumatagos hanggang kalamnan

malalim
----ang lawak ng dagat Pasipiko malabong marating kahti habambuhay sisirin
----ang bangin na pinagdiskargahan ng tren at sino man ang magtangkang tumahak ay mababalot ng ‘di inaasahang kaba at mabilis na pintig ng puso
----sukat ng balong kinahulugan ng baryang kinasasakyan ng hiling ni Nene

sugat
---- sa paglipas ng mga araw, iitim ang kulay at ang hapdi na sa una’y damang dama, ay matutuyo at malilimutan
---- ngunit kung itoy isang nakakubliing patalim na nakaturok sa kailaliman ng buto ng panahon- walang pag asang maghilom

kalungkutan
---- bangkay na nakararamdam ng kanyang pagkakahimlay sa madilim na higaan
----nagdudulot ng pagtulo ng luha at taong inalipusta at pinili nilublob ang mukha at inapakan
----hindi nakikita ng mga taong dumaraan; simpatya ng matino sa osiptal ng mga hibang
----panaka-nakang hihiling na matapos na ang buhay na kinaiingitan ng mga maligning gala

pag-iisa
---- resulta ng mga pinagsama samang salita
---- halo halong ideya sa bawat talata

i said goodbye to my old computer and welcomed the new one with flying pices of paper everywhere and dusty desktop for her to sit on...
i missed typing and downloading dirrrrrrrrrrty stuffs

and now i'm back. although not that long....
i've got a chunky breakdown in my 17 unit semester
5-5-4-3

so, gudluck to me...
and oh... to my new comp as well... he'll serve me for the rest of my papers

and drink caffeine and share my secrets...
my old comp took my arts..

as for now, i dnt have the urge to re type
START OF THE SHOW
again..