still MD?

reality has dropped me from dreamworld that now, as the world is sinking in my brains, i still cannot absorb everything that is actually taking in. dreams would always be dreams, and if you try to grab the best opportunity in store to gain a step up the ladder, you'll find yourself landing on your butt sooner than what you think.

ideally after graduation, my plan is to pursue a medicine career and be the best surgeon, far more better than Burke in cardio or Shepard in neuro. specilaization in mind: neuro, cardio (both already said), onco, or ortho (callie!). i love to see myself all geared up in scrubs, a scalpel or with a makita driller for more hardcore. i think it looks lovely a picture. the big yet, is the sudden rising of the long put off canadian dream. the immigration consul counted 2-4 years before the whole family will be good enough to stay, and that means overlapping with my med studies if ever i decided to pursue.
i dont want to be a helpless pussy, that even lookiing up my ladder is like feeling your heart being stabbed soo many times. afterall its like pulling a trigger and see if it will mark a spot. a little of optimism and maybe this time mom will lend me an ear. come april 19, i foresee that the cloudy brain of mine and the broken ladder will soon be fixed. just please, for the better.
i need to put that scrubs on... deadline: 5 years from now.