how can you possibly write about a person you've loved for almost a year and a half? i can always say that he's one of the greatest person that has come in. i always ask if he's a product of time or just got my luck?i can also bombard the screen with cliched adjectives like he's the most loving, caring, generous, patient - anything that'd make him sound like the perfect boyfriend - and still accomplish nothing except maybe for sounding like a friendster testimonial gone horribly wrong. how can you possibly write about a person whose smallest, most insignificant details - like how he has got his scar on his chin, or how he throws jabs when angry or how his jaw drops when he sleeps - fascinate the life out of you? seriously, with only a thousand letters, how can you write about such a person? i honestly do not know.

its probably time whose gonna fill these all up.

shadow

past the crevices
and nearing the looming emptiness
never looking back
heart running faster than
your limbs do

pay a million times grand
for your life's insurance
a twin for your reserve-
with matching imprints
from thumb to basic strings

finite to infinity
where everything is
programable
back to zero

all attempts
doesnt pay
think you have outsmarted death?

fantasy. fallacy

narcissus

the summer solstice tragedy: when narcissus dipped into the water and has coveted thine self, selfish thinking has led to his end

how suicidal.

yet his flowers bloom. for millions grace his tragedy stripping naked, plus the drools and sweat. drag theirsselves into the waters and love its reflection.

such is the beauty.

@migs
yup there is.. (i think). but not in the sort of "on the rocks".

to avoid boat "rockin" its a 2 week rest.
god has rested on the 7th day, maybe ours need one too.

and migs- sobrang magiging busy talga ako for the next couple of weeks.
pwede na bang excuse yun?

nasty

there will always be pepo-le perv roundin the corner
with a click of the shutter, you might lose that privacy of yours
and theirs, a thousand gains

makeitclear

if life is a piece of boredom
then........shit- pee, shit- pee
round as
circle it goes

cut loops of and press brakes
or

try centrifuge- see the layers
afterall

its not always shit and pee

Ha? ako ba to?
i dont think so
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early summer getaway at zambales. sun had painted my limbs red. now suffering from sunburns.




*photo from l-r: helicopter island, a shot at the beach, me and daniel

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it doesn't matter if you haven;t visited the showers. the old smell of your socks plus plus pheromones will surely be a key to lock some one else's chemoreceptors. and even if you have made some drama to resist the upcoming dread of being boxed again, its always a haunt.
a 400+ -- fast forwarded, sensuous crap and i love you's.
everyones a high.
for even the good deed of yours sometimes pay. and whatever it is, the one thing that will matter is that the grease seeps deep. your blood follows in the morning.
a blessed sign (?)

wacky!!!

sunday has never been a laughtrip. rj went with me to church!!! whoohooo!!! very unlikely. some shots. :)

*but he never seem to notice*

crippled

a glimpse of the past is cycling in the present.
3 cups of diluted caffeine equals an afternoon of palpitations.
an internal time machine has shifted me to the past.
i felt his weak ego projections..

i already killed him. in my dreams....
sad love story

- end of story -

kalyo kalyong paa

unang beses ko lang maglakad paikot ng mendiola. prusisyon na di ako kabilang. pumapel lang ako at nakieksena. pumasok sa bakod ng iba, ngunit hindi naman trumespass- salamat sa maagap na paghawak sa aking kamay at pagbibigay sa akin ng entrance ticket.
ang paghawak rin na iyon ang nagdala at nagikot sa akin paikot ng kalsada.

isang matalinhagang kwento ang prusisyon sa mendiola noong linggo. isang daang dasal at higit pa ang inalay kay sto. nino. isang hatak sa palad.

2 mahigpit na hawak.

few sips are fine

the moment you let your finger go, its just a matter of time before your whole body'll follow. and looking at the hourglass you just set in, the time's already over. someone has already fed on you. its a helpless case.
but on the contrary, [i am loving the idea that somebody has fed on me]

*this doesn't mean danger right?*

mouthfuls

isnt it tempting to eat a gallon of ice cream after that hhhhoooottttt friday evening? i am damn burning. a stick to swath then go. geez..

black eye is just a piece of cake

with things all piled up, black eyes do come in handy:
1.) lets you have an unquestioned excuse
2.) sorrow could be that superficial
3.) paint the world with that color on

plus plus! you dont get that market value to sell that burnt out face.

"sometimes you'll come to that point of empty handedness. with your mind driftin asea. and your stuffing the air as if panting. without exactly any cause at all."

shedding tears

i'll miss 2616...
the corner, the stained sheets, the sunsets, the cafe.

if not for the spoiler, the happy story wont actually end this fast. wishing the worst for him.
yesterday, i went with bry to check another place. not an outsider friendly.

*sob*

chasing pain away

good thing that my tooth cooperated. the idea of a dentist must have eased the pain away. the only thng to mind about is if it would last for tomorrow, the day after tomorrow... till eternity.

*sigh* i hope so.
p.s. bry's a little sicky today. bad bad bad.

it doesnt get any better. my molar hurts soooo bad. my mom told me that if the swelling continues even with medication, i hafta go and let the dentist check me up. i got a dentist phobia when the dentist started to drill holes in my molar a couple of years ago. it was actually an unfinished business since after the "drilling" he told me to visit him the next week. funny cauise until now (2 years later), im still avoiding "the clinic".

going back, after my mom told me about seeing the dentist, i immediately crossed fingers and say my prayers. (this unlikely happens).
if only pain channelling happens, then probably, its now the computer who'll be shitting the pain away.

gums

i got pain pangs 3 days ago near my parotid. at first it was tolerable but then after 2 days, it sorta grow into a humongous pain. and i ended sitting muted. im helpless as my right jaw grows bigger and bigger.

the swelling of my gum was the culprit.

my dormant wisdom tooth is again active. my jaws are painful. and i could only open my mouth 2 fingers wide. when eating, i have to stuff food in. geez.
i already popped a couple of pain relievers tonite.
still no good.