making the most of what is left
3 days to go; 2 more subjects
--- 2 empirical papers
---2 long exams
countless shots.. and finally a degree.
*i'm still looking forward to becoming a doctor. and as i say, a good one.
Sunday, February 25, 2007
rotten
im at the peak of my bewilderment, and im still puzzled as to why everyhting have fallen into broken pieces. this wasnt meant to be so fragile. now, everything just smelled as stale as bread and as bad as rotten egg.
who would like to take in something that has been filled with molds anyway.
i might as well starve myself again
im at the peak of my bewilderment, and im still puzzled as to why everyhting have fallen into broken pieces. this wasnt meant to be so fragile. now, everything just smelled as stale as bread and as bad as rotten egg.
who would like to take in something that has been filled with molds anyway.
i might as well starve myself again
Friday, February 16, 2007
post op
it wasn't a red day affair for me as compared to most of those i know. on the very eve, i was busy doing tons of paperwork, that i dint care if my bags sag or my hair disheveled. and even if i did have the strongest urge to call his cellphone and greet, poverty also slip in my recesses and have won my decision not too. afterall, its the thought that counts. probably he knew of that.
on the very day, i was thrashed out with muscle spasms and headaches, spent the rest of the day on bed, woke up and continued my triathlon of dibidis spared with popcorns and cereals.
nothing really special about it, but yes, it's a good day.
it wasn't a red day affair for me as compared to most of those i know. on the very eve, i was busy doing tons of paperwork, that i dint care if my bags sag or my hair disheveled. and even if i did have the strongest urge to call his cellphone and greet, poverty also slip in my recesses and have won my decision not too. afterall, its the thought that counts. probably he knew of that.
on the very day, i was thrashed out with muscle spasms and headaches, spent the rest of the day on bed, woke up and continued my triathlon of dibidis spared with popcorns and cereals.
nothing really special about it, but yes, it's a good day.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
what my valentine is...
21 months of loyalty, phone fights, i love yous, cheesy talks, secrets and fun.
i'm glad to have you. even if you've been quite a shadow lately.
i admire your undying efforts to reach and understand the immaturity of my thoughts. i may not have any gifts to offer you, or a thousand letters for you to read. i may not be the cheesy girl you ever will dream of. but one thing is certain----
i badly miss you.
21 months of loyalty, phone fights, i love yous, cheesy talks, secrets and fun.
i'm glad to have you. even if you've been quite a shadow lately.
i admire your undying efforts to reach and understand the immaturity of my thoughts. i may not have any gifts to offer you, or a thousand letters for you to read. i may not be the cheesy girl you ever will dream of. but one thing is certain----
i badly miss you.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
a bunch of cheese will do
as of now, my life's a total wreck. i need not explicitly state the status of my daily affairs since it would bring tons of questions-- novel et non.
it bothers me, as i contemplate on the matters, that i have been an easy tweep. small time talks, private messages, jeepney rides-- all of those i rolled in one bottle of vodka and had drank till the last drop. and for a little less than a month, i have been badly intoxicated. BADLY.
what made matters worse--- a slip of the tongue. and an untimely phone call.
by the way, i tried to induce a happy aura by biting some monte carlo today. however, it never worked.
as of now, my life's a total wreck. i need not explicitly state the status of my daily affairs since it would bring tons of questions-- novel et non.
it bothers me, as i contemplate on the matters, that i have been an easy tweep. small time talks, private messages, jeepney rides-- all of those i rolled in one bottle of vodka and had drank till the last drop. and for a little less than a month, i have been badly intoxicated. BADLY.
what made matters worse--- a slip of the tongue. and an untimely phone call.
by the way, i tried to induce a happy aura by biting some monte carlo today. however, it never worked.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
all hearts out
live aids all all fun! buti na lang at may kasama akong tumawa dahil kung hindi, malamang mukha akong sira sa likod nila kaye kakatawa. it was only a bad choice that he was sitting along the aisle and he was easily spotted by giselle. very horrible was when he and another guy was dared to kiss or beso to prove that they weren't closeta's.
the tiger did.
and oh, may i say that giselle picked a gamey little guy. wahahahha
NOTE: gamey LITTLE guy
*laughing all hearts out
live aids all all fun! buti na lang at may kasama akong tumawa dahil kung hindi, malamang mukha akong sira sa likod nila kaye kakatawa. it was only a bad choice that he was sitting along the aisle and he was easily spotted by giselle. very horrible was when he and another guy was dared to kiss or beso to prove that they weren't closeta's.
the tiger did.
and oh, may i say that giselle picked a gamey little guy. wahahahha
NOTE: gamey LITTLE guy
*laughing all hearts out
Friday, January 26, 2007
Friday, January 19, 2007
i have done the unimaginable.
its been quite a while since i vowed not to let anyone in my virtual abode. however, i got a chance to meet someone stupid as i am that easily penetrated my personal bubble; hence gaining a pass to gatecrash (read: irony). i have yet again set aside my intimidating wall and instead opened another door for this someone whose knowledge of me is still bounded by the 4 corners of his monitor..
for you who is new...
welcome.
its been quite a while since i vowed not to let anyone in my virtual abode. however, i got a chance to meet someone stupid as i am that easily penetrated my personal bubble; hence gaining a pass to gatecrash (read: irony). i have yet again set aside my intimidating wall and instead opened another door for this someone whose knowledge of me is still bounded by the 4 corners of his monitor..
for you who is new...
welcome.
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
fork
this should have been posted a week ago, but because of some mishaps (spilled coffee, holed tummy, black eyebags) which can be easily attributed to lack of sleep and a problematic body clock, it took me several days to recocver from this holiday stress.
2006 bombarded me with several big hit questions . most salient of which carries off till now, future at stake
i do not need a psychic to address my future. enough that i know how goal oriented i am to address the situation of my year.. ideally, my plan is to graduate and pursue med. but the past year have extended my borders to the full and exposed me to some possibilities of what life will be if i take the other way granting that my road forks.
perhaps a year off?
or pursue my long time career-- healing wounds, removing scars, easing pain. all at the same time. and yes, loving it all the more.
this should have been posted a week ago, but because of some mishaps (spilled coffee, holed tummy, black eyebags) which can be easily attributed to lack of sleep and a problematic body clock, it took me several days to recocver from this holiday stress.
2006 bombarded me with several big hit questions . most salient of which carries off till now, future at stake
i do not need a psychic to address my future. enough that i know how goal oriented i am to address the situation of my year.. ideally, my plan is to graduate and pursue med. but the past year have extended my borders to the full and exposed me to some possibilities of what life will be if i take the other way granting that my road forks.
perhaps a year off?
or pursue my long time career-- healing wounds, removing scars, easing pain. all at the same time. and yes, loving it all the more.
Monday, December 25, 2006
christmas was meager
though our house was fashioned to look a little of being celebrative and cheery- few decors were put up and we hadn't have the usual tree, it wasn't that bad.
even if:
* i only received one gift - not from parents.. but from some kaexchange
* 1 greeting thru text
* 1 greeting thru phone
* the last two came from one person (thnks fabs)
still it wasn't that bad...
i did get even later in the day:
*spending it with few relatives
*videoke straight from afternoon till evening
*LAMOOOON (yep)
*lick from mindy and a snob from chinggay
*went to the fort and was unfortunate as we end up "cutoffed" from krispy kreme line, gonuts instead
*kuya javi winning the freethrow challenge and won chinggoy (the unggoy stuffed toy)
*having felt his fulfillment- priceless!
*and just being plainly satisfied with how everything was as the whole day ended.
still... christmas was fun regardless of it being meager.
though our house was fashioned to look a little of being celebrative and cheery- few decors were put up and we hadn't have the usual tree, it wasn't that bad.
even if:
* i only received one gift - not from parents.. but from some kaexchange
* 1 greeting thru text
* 1 greeting thru phone
* the last two came from one person (thnks fabs)
still it wasn't that bad...
i did get even later in the day:
*spending it with few relatives
*videoke straight from afternoon till evening
*LAMOOOON (yep)
*lick from mindy and a snob from chinggay
*went to the fort and was unfortunate as we end up "cutoffed" from krispy kreme line, gonuts instead
*kuya javi winning the freethrow challenge and won chinggoy (the unggoy stuffed toy)
*having felt his fulfillment- priceless!
*and just being plainly satisfied with how everything was as the whole day ended.
still... christmas was fun regardless of it being meager.
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Saturday, December 09, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
PSYCHIATRIC CLEARANCE
i never did anything right. i'm in no proper order-- the most positive i can get does not sit perfectly to what i'm planning ahead; the most negative, has been presumed to be bound by aggressive tendencies..
what i thought was a normal release of sadness, is a predisposition to what he says--- DEPRESSION.
i say, i'm bound to med school; he says i'm not.
and the paper tells otherwise.
i never did anything right. i'm in no proper order-- the most positive i can get does not sit perfectly to what i'm planning ahead; the most negative, has been presumed to be bound by aggressive tendencies..
what i thought was a normal release of sadness, is a predisposition to what he says--- DEPRESSION.
i say, i'm bound to med school; he says i'm not.
and the paper tells otherwise.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Thursday, November 09, 2006
ENTHUSIASM IN QUESTION
my first day hit a piece of my brain a while ago with a question that i forced myself to think over... and over...
am i still enthusiastic and as determined to pursue a medicine career?
i may seem to be a conformist. but after almost 4 years, i'm almost completely spaced out from what my initial plans are. if before i'm proud to tell everyone that i'd be pursuing my medicine studies, im shrinking myself to a couch head and trying to think it over. im now opting for a year off after grad and decide. or maybe to be like a bummer and wait for graces.
is it that im just fixated from my childhood dreams of being clad in white and operating a thousand carcasses? or i just love the morbidity of being in service of others??
err.. my public service inclination is still a big question mark.
my first day hit a piece of my brain a while ago with a question that i forced myself to think over... and over...
am i still enthusiastic and as determined to pursue a medicine career?
i may seem to be a conformist. but after almost 4 years, i'm almost completely spaced out from what my initial plans are. if before i'm proud to tell everyone that i'd be pursuing my medicine studies, im shrinking myself to a couch head and trying to think it over. im now opting for a year off after grad and decide. or maybe to be like a bummer and wait for graces.
is it that im just fixated from my childhood dreams of being clad in white and operating a thousand carcasses? or i just love the morbidity of being in service of others??
err.. my public service inclination is still a big question mark.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
IT IS THINSPIRING NO MORE
i'm grateful to have a handful of friends who are in silent mumbling for the past few days when my thinspiring photo at frinedster was publicized. even if i look like my last muscle was already been converted for glycoligenic consumption, rest assured that im in tight shape--- i still have my bones for a frame and my skins are up for a good cover.
so far, my "fitness" is being put to stress by flu and head ache of all sorts. i only ate a chicken the night before then the next day i found myself unable to stand and walk for movement sake.
the last thing i know, my tongue grew out to be a bittergourd, and has spared me to eat for two consecutive meals. please, no more finger pointing if you think i look a lot lot worse.
i'm grateful to have a handful of friends who are in silent mumbling for the past few days when my thinspiring photo at frinedster was publicized. even if i look like my last muscle was already been converted for glycoligenic consumption, rest assured that im in tight shape--- i still have my bones for a frame and my skins are up for a good cover.
so far, my "fitness" is being put to stress by flu and head ache of all sorts. i only ate a chicken the night before then the next day i found myself unable to stand and walk for movement sake.
the last thing i know, my tongue grew out to be a bittergourd, and has spared me to eat for two consecutive meals. please, no more finger pointing if you think i look a lot lot worse.
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