fabs miss na kita

sabi ni hannah miss mo na daw ako?? talga? hehe... oo nga. sabi ni ate pag kagraduate daw niya papakasal na siya.. pinapaalala ko lang na just incase wla kang mahanap, yung usapan natin dati. tayo ang magpapakasal sa ayaw at sa gusto mo at sa gusto ko..

hehe...
bagong word: mwahness?

twoots

"twoot" and off the fart go. the smell of pressure, the smell of fear. well, probably another smell of a man unease. funny. little miss me, as i was in my kinder years have stopped my 123's and my abc's- came to hate that smell..

i smell fart. and someone would pretend and laugh. doubted to be
laughing gas. and for someone who just farted will be the next
laughing stock. haha. funny.

and for the nectared scent who claims to come clean off his ass. and will found out later that his undies are messed with the u know
thing..

oh, just remembered that somtimes humans tend to be the orangest thing they could get. pretending to be sweet yet sour.

tnx for the orangeclock. smells like fart i shant say. dont worry. that secret i wont tell. hu wud care to laugh by the way? skunky you!

DAS EXPERIMENT:TALAS SA PATALASTAS

september 16: tapos na
september 3rd week: abangan na lang baka magpost kami
september 27: 830-1 phan 307 a

note that all walk ins are pwede but not guaranteed. priority ang mga nag sign up. pero if di sila sumipot, then all is well hehe.

s hope
if this means for me to pay.. then again, ill allow myself to pull of some cash from my trust wallet and again see the changes. i have given this twice wrinkled in red. and some, just a pass by. for some unknown reason, there isnt any underlying attempts to cover up what has been mudpiled with. n times misinterpreted and what is given as a gift, ill later found with flies under the sewers. left to rot. and I...

have been oblivious to it all.

coz.. hard for me it is to avoid. i'm again one of the foolish hopefuls that will venture into another pseudo adventure. and just as i had stepped in the counter line, i again will empty my wallet and thrashed out the remaining pieces left. almost empty.
for that matter, allow me to pull off my ears and burn my eyes. i am again nothing. with nothing to sense with.
let me see the changes. and if not, better to have my antennas out. a relief that i wont see that red matter dumped sumwhere. or hear sighs and sympathies. ive got nothing more to trust. it'll take another more sunrises before i could raise bundles to put in my leather. and again to exchange with something not so really invaluable.

WHOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! BOOK 6 DOWN

it does look like im exaggerating on dumbledores death on rowling's sixth book... i never thought that i'll cry at his murder. too bad.
i pity harry.

and hogwarts.. i guess the next harry potter book wont start with harry getiing to excited to go back to school. this childrens book will be much darker i bet.

ATLAS
atlas has been carrying the world...
now i carry him for my next set of frog morphology to memorize.

tama bang sagot na spider shaped ang motor cells?? i mean tama bang ganun ang description or inaccurate yun?

atlas is not giving answers. spoon feeding.

funny, im looking at his green thin book..
about frogs?? hu cares anyway. im done with my lab work and im off to bed. whew!

PAGKILOS

tinuldukan ng pagsulyap ng buwan ang umaga
rumaragasang gumulong sa mga palad ang mga barya
at muling binawain ng saplot ang pangangatawan
naghumindik ang haria
t tuluyang pinasok ang hiwa sa pagitan ng mga hita

malapit na! MALAPIT NA!

nagbiyahe ang pangalawang kamay sa mga numero
Heto na!at tuluyang bumaba ang mga anghel mula sa langit
namilog ang dugo sa loob ng sinapunan nagimbal ang mamang nagtitinda ng lumpia
at dali daling lumapag ang dala dalang bilao sa semento
umihip ang hangin at kumarera sa pagtibok ang puso at pulso

may buhay! may sanggol sa basura

nadagdagang ang dumudura ng laway sa lansangan
ang dating bata,tuluyang naging binata
ang dating inosente
binihisan ng kalye
humagibis ang buhay kasabay ng paghagibis ng metakl;
lumipad ang matatayog na pangarap sa kalawakan
lumangoy ang limpak limpak na salapi
sa karagatan at
lumapat ang pinaghalu halong laway
sa mga lansangan

nakakstress

may exam pa ko sa math and 115. panu na kaya yun na makakausap at malalakad ko na ang venue ng rummage sale ng org namen?
nakakstress pala talga ang rummage. sana lang malaki kitain ng org namin..

suzie at ako ang projects heads kapal talga ng mukha ko makisali. ayan nahirapan pa... ok lang.
gudluck sa tin suzie!
go fincom!

stucked

so... tired yet my mind sends fritters of signals for my hand to type nothng.. i dont have anything in mind to talk about. a blank and nothingness... my eyes are glued on this monitor with flashing lights and my heads in circles...

my hairs moist with sweat trickling down my nape...
beside me are piles of books waiting to be read.
my papers are flying; some are scattered on the floor

some people need a rest in peace..
i wsh angels would give me a drink of tranquilizer. i wanna close my eyes and shut myself entirely...

----blank mind works slow----

sigh

long weya to go:
still have a bio lab exam
a math 100 exam
a takehome test in 150
a 115 exam
a revised rrl
a reaction paper

ughh.. im tired. i need massage.

i hafta attnd org stops: buddy date. do the usual tambay hours with buddies.
tnx bry for the company... haha. as always. i know your doors up to the 26th and its wide open. yahooo!!

damn so tired. bed bed bed

single is happy

and so i thought that being alone is impossible for me..
i saw him again. were supposed to be the best buddies that he promised us to be after the incident.. unfortunately, i know that promises are meant to be broken. as i have anticipated, it never came... yea, i did saw him and my hand acknowldege him.. i was with a friend discussing a difficult math problem. and i saw in my peripherals that he glanced back... i know he will. im done with myself on my knees.. ewww.
so far, im flying high with my superfriend.. he's by far the closest in my bubble.. happy.. not rushing on things.
"emotion is fleeting"-- a note always posted at the back of my head... and so i know
happy to be single...

tapos na ang rrl ko, panalo ulit ang up at 2-0 na siya! mahusay. mukhang friends na kami ni kitkat dahil sa problema niya kay eric! gusto ko tuloy magparequest ng buddy.
haha...

mukhang pahinga ang weekend ko.

scruppling over pages and pages... tired eyes... a filled up mind.. a floating brain swimming with infos and toxicities... i miss bed. i miss sleeping.
i thought journals will be over. but after submitting my 7 page rrl, my prof. toold me that it was too short to be a review. so she gave the whole class another extension --- friday. omg... how am ii suppose to focs on other subjects if this class gives me loads of stuff to do...
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theres still my math hanging in the air-- my exam was a rush.. i was late. and my teacher almost threw his butts off after i told him that i was rescheduling myself to exam in another batch whcich is only for those in conflict. and i, being late, must deal with the consequences . but no can do... he pitied me for being so dumb and disorieted. allowed me to take my exams.. haha.. and im proud that i finished first in class. an hour and a quarter. really fast for a math.
as of now... still struggling for my 115.. my eyes are pretty heavy and i dreamt of sleeping.. books sometimes serve as pillows for the head. ughhh.. i hate journals. i hate write ups..

let friday come fast.. i wish this over.

masamang balita

dextro scolio ang tawag sa sakit ko ngayon. its a mild scolio caused by improoper posture... and now, that i have been diagnosed with such a case, i'm still thinking as to why it had my back. would i be crippling?? haha.. or im just exaggerating so much on this...
i just hate s-shaped backs. now that it hit me...
i hate myself.

sorry. just a health buff.. health freak..
swimming daw ang katapat.

slip in pink

a- gent dressed in hot P
skirt with frills,
a bag that glitts
his hair in a P wig..

underneath, was a sleeping bud
and bushy slabs...
uh oh.

taught he was a she. until
i found out
he was hot in those PEes...
haha..

head, books, nigthinngales

after a month of school, i felt tired. having frequent headaches and blurring vision. i lost my glasses and have no plans of buying another one. i always read with my magnifying lenses though.. how stoopid.
i got no more free days to while myself in malls. but only freedays to scrupple on my books. or, sit myself in the library for hours doin exercises that callouses my fingers and leave my hand trembling. then my hand would dissociate and join its pain leaving me numb of it....

but that doesnt matter. i still spill ink and do cursives.. they serve me importance. now. and probably in my future.. they're my fallback.
notes come in handy...
mines not neat.

with regards to my book, i'm tearing them page by poage now. absorbing infos... data overload.. now i know why my head hurts...
its the nightinggale screaming at the back of my head..

2000 decibels?? ddear i,m deaf
but no can do... he loves screaming at me...

for the man who pains... so do i.

a thousand slaps, a bruised back...
salined eyes... and a beating
heart..

months have passed since i gave
the burden for you to carry.. i
know the past months have been
to weary for you to keep on. but
still you held your calloused
hands on mine...

what's the pain if it would
release immeasurable butterflies
and rainbows if red arched lips would be the
only answer in every questions
yet to be answered...

what is pain if there is love... a
lot of it..

you have believeth.. though
blinded.
yet, faith has lead you.
i know..time will let me nderstand...

still trying.

as for yourthousand slaps, a bruised back...
salined eyes... and a beating
heart..
i'm really sorry.. i really do

KONEKSIYON

Malamig
----may makapal na ulap sa kaibuturan ng laman, maliliit na karayom na nananatiling nakatusok sa balat--- hindi ginabayan ng tsinung mahusay sa acupuncture
----tumatagos hanggang kalamnan

malalim
----ang lawak ng dagat Pasipiko malabong marating kahti habambuhay sisirin
----ang bangin na pinagdiskargahan ng tren at sino man ang magtangkang tumahak ay mababalot ng ‘di inaasahang kaba at mabilis na pintig ng puso
----sukat ng balong kinahulugan ng baryang kinasasakyan ng hiling ni Nene

sugat
---- sa paglipas ng mga araw, iitim ang kulay at ang hapdi na sa una’y damang dama, ay matutuyo at malilimutan
---- ngunit kung itoy isang nakakubliing patalim na nakaturok sa kailaliman ng buto ng panahon- walang pag asang maghilom

kalungkutan
---- bangkay na nakararamdam ng kanyang pagkakahimlay sa madilim na higaan
----nagdudulot ng pagtulo ng luha at taong inalipusta at pinili nilublob ang mukha at inapakan
----hindi nakikita ng mga taong dumaraan; simpatya ng matino sa osiptal ng mga hibang
----panaka-nakang hihiling na matapos na ang buhay na kinaiingitan ng mga maligning gala

pag-iisa
---- resulta ng mga pinagsama samang salita
---- halo halong ideya sa bawat talata

i said goodbye to my old computer and welcomed the new one with flying pices of paper everywhere and dusty desktop for her to sit on...
i missed typing and downloading dirrrrrrrrrrty stuffs

and now i'm back. although not that long....
i've got a chunky breakdown in my 17 unit semester
5-5-4-3

so, gudluck to me...
and oh... to my new comp as well... he'll serve me for the rest of my papers

and drink caffeine and share my secrets...
my old comp took my arts..

as for now, i dnt have the urge to re type
START OF THE SHOW
again..